First Love ?!?

So when I get the question about "my first love" I know the one guy I love but am not in love with .There is always mystery's behind the "love" word you never know at first but my first love's name is Christopher Joesph Kaul. I knew him since I was a wee little 9 year old. We didn't really talk though at that age I just really always saw him as "that kid" until I was 13. When we were 12 I noticed he was really cute, but I never thought things could go beyond friendship, but my thoughts really did change real quickly. 

It all started in 2007. Chris and my brother got really close.Although I didn't notice my dad told me Chris gave me the "I like you look..." I still don't know what that "look" is. Anyways, They became best friends and I couldn't help but notice that he was starting to get cuter and cuter in my eyes everytime he was over. Summer came by and my sister's graduation party was being thrown. Do you know that feeling when that person walks into the room and you know you just can't be without them near you ? Because that was my feeling constantly after that night it was this feeling I couldn't get rid off. That night really turned everything around for us. I remember getting my new phone and then I called myself off his phone to hear my barbie girl ringback tone. He promised me that night he was gonna teach me how to skateboard... even though he never did. We texted that whole night.

Everything was ruined during my first day of volleyball practice over summer and I found out that Chris had a girlfriend I was so upset. Only for the reason that he never told me he just let me think that he didn't, until I asked him who she was. So I tried to move past that I started to have a crush on this guy on the first day of school. By this time Chris had already broken up with his girlfriend. The first week of school Chris texted my best friend Briana and asked her who I liked. She told him I liked him a little and then I got a text that night from him telling me he liked me and I told him I did too.... kinda. haha. 

The one day I remember so well is the night he was spending the night and my brother fell asleep and Chris, my mom and I were watching a show about a mentally disabled boy, which really touched me. As I was walking back from brushing my teeth I was on the phone and I kinda got lost in his eyes that night knowing I wanted to kiss him so bad. I was so glad to know he did too. He kissed me that night, not just a kiss that didn't mean anything it was like a kiss with so much behind it, 2 people from completely different worlds, it felt right. Not because it was my first kiss, but just because it was with him. 

We always use to say forever & ever babe to each other because our relationship wasn't gonna go to be boyfriend girlfriend stuff until my parents were okay with it but now we are just friends for right now because things were really messed up when school started and everything, but I definitely know that it will happen one day because that feeling I got that night I haven't got with any of the other guys I went out with. There was something different and unique about him something that will never leave my heart. I know he's always going to be there for me no matter if its as a "boyfriend" or as a "friend" he's one amazing kid and yes, My first Love.